Untold Secret...

Working story set aside...guys, do you know that I have a life secret untold? I think a couple of you knows what I'm saying...

There is something important about me which I wanted to say it out but due to the Malaysian situation; i.e.; mentality, openness and level of acceptance, I have kept it with me for a long time... It is not about what I want or what I choose... It is about what I am and what I would like to have in life. People do not understand me yet they pretend to be very close to me. Despite me being happy go lucky all the time, my heart shrinks and became smaller to myself (I prefer to give more for other people such as friends and relatives). I did not asked to be given such situation nor did I pray to be trapped in one. I became more tired with each month n year passing by. If I reveal too much of myself, I risk losing more friends.

Tell me guys, why in the world am I saying these??????????